As I walked up the stairs this morning to put my baby down for his nap I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror hanging in the hallway. I had to catch my breath as I felt such amazement and gratitude washing over me.
A year ago I thought I would never be that girl in the mirror.
A year ago I thought my baby would come a different way, born from another mother.
A year ago we decided to give the treatments one more shot.
A year ago that girl in the mirror had no clue what was about to happen in a few short weeks.
It amazes me how much has changed in that one year, how (as cheesy as it sounds) Gods timing IS perfect, how looking back I'd never change a thing as how things went.
In the thick of it I hated the waiting and the disappointments, I thought our prayers didn't reach Gods ears. But the hardships strengthened my marriage and taught me so many lessons. Not only patience but also understanding and faith.
Is it easy to say this, now things have turned out the way they did? Would I be able to say all these things if I hadn't gotten pregnant and we were still struggling with infertility?
I don't know, it probably is easy and I probably wouldn't be saying these things, but all I know is that God is faithful no matter what and no matter how things could have been.
This morning I looked over at my little boy sleeping in his crib and all I could think was: 'our God is an awesome God!'
That is one thing that hasn't changed and never will!
How great is He!