Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Day 17 of the Blogtember blog challenge : a memory you would love to relive

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From the moment I could feel the little flutters in my stomach at twenty weeks I felt I could breathe again.
During my pregnancy I had been feeling so insecure and afraid something would go wrong and those wonderful, tiny movements would set my mind at ease the second I felt them.
They were constant little reminders that everything was okay. 
And they were most beautiful. 

But those movements (or the lack of them) could paralyze me too.
If I hadn't felt movement for a while I would be in panic mode until I felt them again. 
I was so full of fear.
Looking back I wish I could have enjoyed those flips and flutters and nudges more,
and not let fear rule me.
I wish I could have trusted God more.
I hope that if I ever get to relive those moments, 
with a new baby fluttering away, I'll trust more and fear less.

Love, Maria



8 comments:

  1. This is so sweet! Those flutters were the best and most reassuring feelings in the world!! I didn't fear them as much as I should have. But I know if I'm able to have another baby again, it will be so different! My sweet friend lost her baby at 37 weeks.... so heart breaking! It's a huge reminder to enjoy every single moment of LIFE!

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  2. beautiful! love those flutters, twists and turns. xo

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  3. That photo is adorable! I love the way you explained both your joy and your fear. I haven't gotten to experience motherhood yet, but it's something I'm really looking forward to. :)

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  4. I am praying for you!
    Love, your mama <3

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  5. I can so much relate, with every tiny detail! I totally felt the same, it´s like I needed nearly the whole pregnancy until my heart got fully healed. Sometimes healing just needs some time. But I think you also relate that there is such an overwhelming thankfulness, I always can read it out of the lines you are writing!
    God is good and he has everything in his hands, also our hearts!

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    1. ahh and the pic, so beautiful, friend !

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