17 weeks

Micha, my boy. You are 17 weeks old. Can we stop time?  

The other day I was looking at some photos from when you were a teeny, tiny little thing. 

You were so skinny and fragile and look at you now, the chubbiest baby on the block! 

It's like someone secretly switched babies while I wasn't looking!

For comparison, this was you at 1 week old, so tiny!

Some fun facts about you at 17 weeks:

- You have been a bit 'difficult' this week, especially in the sleep department. We were just getting used to having baby free evenings, but now you like to wake up once or twice each evening. And as for the night, meh, not as good as they were either! Can't wait until you start sleeping through the night, that seems like heaven to me! But, I still love my midnight baby snuggles with you!

- You have healed nicely from your hernia surgery, and had a bath for the first time since the operation. Don't worry you had showers in between!

- You're starting to roll, right now you can roll from your back to your side. I bet it's any day now that you'll start to roll over on your tummy!

- You're able to play by yourself for a longer period of time. 

- You love making out with your Sophie the Giraffe toy and are still fascinated by your books.

- You are such a happy baby most of the time. I  just love hanging out with you every day!

We love you so much little man!

Love, Mama

Ch-ch-ch-changes

Exactly a year ago today B. and I received the best news we could possibly wish for.

I was pregnant!

We had waited for this moment for so long, and now it was reality:

We were so excited for the journey that was awaiting us, that took me from here:

to here:

and ended with us holding this precious little bundle:

Wow, what a year!

So many changes. Good, good changes.

God has blessed us more than we could have ever dreamed of!

Love, Maria

16 weeks + a day

16 weeks old, Micha! You are growing up way to fast!

Yesterday we spent all day at the hospital because you needed a hernia operation.

I wasn't able to make your normal weekly photo, but I managed to make this one at the hospital.

Papa and I were pretty nervous about the procedure, but you were so brave! You smiled at all the doctors and nurses all the way up to the operation room. I was allowed to hold your hand while they put you to sleep. It was such a strange feeling to leave you behind!

When they were done operating on you I was there to hold you while you woke up. I've never been so happy to see you wake up! At first you were a little bit sad, but after an hour or so you started to perk up and smile at us again. You quickly were your old self again and started flirting with all the nurses!

You had to spend the night in the hospital, luckily I was able to stay with you! This morning we were allowed to take you home. 

We are so thankful that you're our happy, healthy boy again.

You looked so delicious in your mini gown

We love you!

Love, mama

Weekend & Ten Things

It's Friday! B. is an elementary school teacher and has the weekends off, yay!
Usually when he comes home from school during the week Micha is pretty exhausted and not always the happiest little camper. So on the weekends they really get some fun quality time together. I love it!

Speaking of Fridays, I saw this e card on Facebook the other day and it made me giggle!

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So true hey? :)

So, I thought it would be nice to further introduce myself to readers who don't know me yet. I think most people reading along know me (Hi!), but I feel like doing it anyways!

I saw a 'Ten Things' post on Leighs blog, and thought I'd give it a try too!

1. I was born in Australia, moved to Canada when I was six and when I was ten we moved to Holland. What does that make me? Australian, Canadian, Dutch? I have no clue! I feel most connected to Canada and Holland!

2. I met B. when I was fourteen, we started dating when I was sixteen, and we got married when I was twenty-one. Our love story deserves a whole other post!

3. We struggled with infertility for four years before I got pregnant with Micha. He is a miracle baby!

4. I have a BIG sweet tooth, and miss American/Canadian junk food like crazy here in Holland!
Where are ma donuts??

5. I studied Journalism in University but didn't get my degree because of all the infertility yuckiness, too much on my mind!

6. I work a few hours a week as a Barista, it's turned me into such a coffee snob! Nothing's good enough for me anymore unless I make it myself! :)

7. My dream is to one day open my own little bakery/ breakfast shop! I love baking, I'll be sharing my favorite recipes soon!

8. I've wanted to start a blog for a few years now, but always thought that my life wasn't interesting enough. But now that my parents live so far away it's a good way to keep them updated on Micha and our lives. And it's become such a fun way to connect with so many people all over the world! I'm happy I finally took the step!

9. I love being a mom, even if it's hard sometimes. I'm so in love with my boy!

10. I love my Savior, Jesus Christ, but I should make more time for him in my daily life! Taking time to pray and read the bible is definitely something I need to work on!

So, that's a little about me, why don't you share a little about yourself?
 Have a great weekend!

Love, Maria


Linking up with Casey today

Books - Embrace the Camera

Here are Micha and I doing his most favorite thing in the world! He absolutely loves it when we read him a book and is really able to concentrate on the pages. 

I'm so happy he loves books just like his mama! My favorite childhood memories are of the evenings when my sister and I would climb into bed and listen to our dad reading a story before we went to sleep.

I hope that one day when Micha looks back on his childhood he'll remember these moments too!

Love, Maria

-Embracing the Camera with Emily today-

'I am almighty. I am enough for you. 
Maybe you're doubting this at the moment, 
but just trust me' - God * 

Bam! There it is, exactly what I needed to hear today. Maybe you do too?

Love, Maria

* from 'Too Busy Not To Pray' - Bill Hybels

15 weeks

Wow, Micha, you're 15 weeks old already! We love every little thing about you!

- You have actually been in our lives for a year now, yesterday it was exactly a year ago that you were placed into my womb as a tiny little embryo. I remember laying there and thinking 'Is this little one going to stay?' And you did! God is so great! I feel so blessed to live in a time with modern medicine and smart doctors!

- This week has been kind of a rough one for you. You had your immunization shots on Thursday and the aftermath wasn't so nice for you. I hated to see you in pain and I cried with you.

I think the shots affected your stomach too, you've been pooping green all week... hmm.. TMI?

- At the your check up on Thursday you weighed almost 8 kilograms (17.5 pounds) and you measured 65 cm (25.5 inches) long. That's a kilogram heavier and 5 cm taller than four weeks ago. My milk is good for you boy!

- We got you your library membership this week. You love it when we read you books, and I can't wait until you're old enough to pick out your own books at the library!

- We started using the cloth diapers this week because  your bum is finally big enough I'm finally not chickening out anymore, and it's going great! It's definitely not as hard as I thought it would be, and your bum looks so cute and fluffy with them on. We're currently using Bumgenius all-in-one and Flip diapers, I'm still on the fence as to which ones I like better.

Can't wait to see what this week has in store for us sweet boy!

Love, Mama

Doing the hard things

When I was pregnant, and even before, there was one thing I was so sure of, that I would breastfeed my baby and that we'd live happy and healthy ever after...

I thought breastfeeding would be so relaxing for me and Micha, that when he would be upset I could lovingly hold him to my chest and feed him. That he would look up at me with such satisfaction and love in his eyes. 

I thought that I could catch up on reading and praying and maybe even blogging while I was feeding my baby.

I thought it would make me feel like such a super mom.

I thought it would be easy...

I was wrong. Sometimes it's downright hard and frustrating and not the relaxing and calming moment I was hoping for and counting on.

So many times breastfeeding Micha is a battle, sometimes it makes me feel like I'm not a super mom at all, but a failure. 

.....

Like yesterday, I had taken Micha to get his second rounds of shots and later that day it really started to bother him. 

His legs were hurting him (where the doctor had given him the shots) and he just felt so miserable. He was crying inconsolably and I couldn't get him to calm done. 

I tried to nurse him, but he just wouldn't latch on and when he did he would let go after a few minutes and start screaming at my breasts. 

I knew he was hungry so I pumped some milk with my Medela, within a few minutes he had practically inhaled the content of the bottle. 

While I was happy that I had fed him, it made me feel so worthless that I couldn't breastfeed him when he needed it most.

I hated seeing my baby in pain, but I hated even more that I, his mama, couldn't calm him down by nursing him. 

I broke down and cried.

But then it dawned on me, I was being selfish.

I was so focused on nursing being such a great experience for me that I forgot what it's all about; loving and feeding my baby so that he can grow and be happy and feel loved.

If pumping milk to keep him fed is what he wants at the moment, that's what he should be getting. Even if it makes me feel unnecessary or failing(which I don't need to be feeling in the first place), that's my problem and I have to deal with it.

Being a mom has been such a learning experience for me in being selfless, and putting someone else's needs before mine. It has taught me that it's not about me any more. It has taught me that LOVE means: doing the hard things and not giving up. 

With Gods help, I can do the hard things.

Love, Maria

Embrace the Camera - Papa's turn

Today I'm linking up with Emily again. (I know I'm supposed to be in the pic, but I guess I am, in the reflection in their eyes ;) )

These are my two favorite guys in the world embracing the camera together.

I just love this photo of them together.  

Everyday when B. comes home from work he picks Micha up out of his playpen or takes him out of my (tired) arms and cuddles with him or reads him a book. Micha LOVES this time of day and lights up as soon as B. enters the room.

B. has always been the best husband I could ever wish for, but seeing him with Micha has made him even better in my eyes! 

There's something so attractive about seeing your husband with your baby!

So thankful for my two amazing guys!

Love, Maria

14 weeks

Today Micha is 14 weeks. It amazes me how much he changes every week. 

A few Micha facts:

- This week he's been sleeping so much better than the weeks before. We borrowed a baby sleeping bag, the Puckababy, from friends and it's been amazing. No more flailing arms and legs in bed, yay!

- Yesterday I took Micha to the swimming pool for the first time. We went with my friend Marloes and her baby Ben. Micha loved it, he just relaxed in my arms and floated in the water. And of course he looked adorable in his little swimming trunks! Too bad I didn't make a photo.

- This week he gets his second round of shots, not looking forward to that. I hate seeing him in pain.

- Every morning Micha wakes up so happy and ready to play, it's the best way to start the day.

- We have a new evening ritual as a family, after supper and nursing, we curl up on the couch and read a book together and sing some songs. So nice.

- Micha is really starting to show more and more of his personality and B. and I couldn't enjoy it more!

We love our boy!

Love, Maria

The boy is popular

It seems like yesterday that we welcomed Micha into this world, and at the same time it's like he's always been here.

He's only 13 weeks old and he's already stolen our hearts for good!  And not only ours, from the moment he was born he's attracted so much attention and love, people even flew across oceans and continents to meet him!

First came Alice, my sister who lives in Canada. She and her oldest daughter Jacoba arrived when Micha was only a week old. Jacoba went and visited her cousins here in Holland but Alice stayed in our home for ten days. It was so  nice to have her here, and Micha loved her!

As a mother of four, she was the perfect person to help us (new and overwhelmed parents) by giving us advice, rocking Micha to sleep and just being there for us! I loved sharing my first moments as a mom with my oldest sister! She sure was missed when she left!

Then came my mom and my dad. Last year they moved to Benin, Africa, to help out the local churches there with advice, training etc. They left around the time I found out I was pregnant, and while I totally support what they're doing in Benin, I missed them so much during my pregnancy. Luckily they visited Holland for two weeks in April when I was about 26 weeks pregnant.

And then, about two weeks after Micha was born they visited again. I thought it would be so hard not seeing my parents and showing them their newest grandson right after he was born. But because everything was so new and overwhelming I didn't have much time to think about it.

But the moment they arrived at out house I realized how much I had missed them, finally they would see our son and see their daughter as a mom. It was such a special moment! 

The last international visitors were my oldest and closest friend Lydia from Canada and her youngest boy Myles. Lydia and I have been best friends since we were six years old and our friendship has continued even though we are now an ocean apart. Every time we meet up, even if there have been years in between, it's like we've never missed each other. We have such a unique bond and I'm so blessed to have a friend like Lydia in my life! The last time we saw each other was in 2008 when we were both newly weds and thinking about starting families, and now we're both momma's. We spent eight days together just hanging out at home and walking into town with our boys. Nothing crazy, but it was perfect!

So yeah, the boy has been quite popular! I love that he's so loved!

Love, Maria

13 weeks

This week Micha is 13 weeks old. 

Look at him in all of his chubster glory!

Some Micha facts:

- He's really starting to interact more with us, so much fun! 

- He usually greets me with a great big smile whenever I get him after a nap. 

- He loves to smile at us, but when he's mad, he'll let us know!

- He loves it when we read books to him, especially books with colorful pages.

- He pulls himself up when we hold his hands.

- He loves to grab for his toys, but doesn't always succeed at it! 

- He's starting to nap a bit better during the day, which is nice for me(and this blog!).

Each week I make a photo of him sitting in a chair with his Sophie giraffe and his beautiful crocheted blanket. 

Here are the photos of week 1-12

I wonder how long I'll keep up making  these weekly photo's,  but for now I really enjoy seeing how much he changes week by week!

Love, Maria